Monday, July 24, 2017

Sometimes Life Sucks, But It Goes On...

You ever have something happen in your life that just completely knocks you off your feet and heightens your depression and self-doubt? It's amazing to me how one small thing can flip that switch so easily. This happened to me last weekend and I thought it would be a great story to share with you here because it just fits into the whole online dating thing and dealing with your own demons.

For the most part, I am pretty confident in owning my single status. I enjoy being independent and not having to answer to anyone or have someone always up my butt. I still linger on some dating apps once in awhile just seeing what’s out there. Of course I would still like to find my male soul mate but I try not to stress about it and just let it happen when it's meant to happen.

I recently re-connected with an old friend from high school. We were never good friends, per se, we just talked randomly here and there when we were younger. It turns out that she moved to the same town I live in a few years ago with her now ex-boyfriend. We connected via Facebook and began talking and realized how much we had in common, and she invited me over last weekend.

We sat for hours just talking and talking. Neither one of us know many people around here, we are both kind of loners and just like to stay in our little bubbles. We were discussing the few people that we do know in town asking if we knew any of the same people. She had only been single for about a month and said she wasn’t ready to start seeing anyone any time soon.

She showed me a pic of a guy who friended her on Facebook whom she thought was super hot but she hadn't talked to him yet. I recognized his photo right away. I have seen him on a few different dating sites. He is cute and I think I may have sent him a message or two in the past in an attempt to start a conversation since he was right here in town, but he never responded.

My friend was drinking and having a good time. It was getting late, I wasn’t drinking but was getting tired so I told her I needed to get back home and check on my kids.

The next morning, I woke up to a couple of messages from her saying that the hot guy was coming over! I was a tad jealous but I sent a message to her asking how it went. She replied around 11 in the morning saying that he was still there. She went on to say how they just clicked immediately and they are both really into each other.

I know I should have been happy for her.. And I acted like I was for her sake. But damn, that shit stung! Here she is, just telling me how it was going to take her awhile to get over her ex and she wasn’t ready for any type of relationship, she messages this guy, he responds, and now they are pretty much dating! I couldn’t even get a message back!
True Pheromones
Yeah, I’m happy for her but the shit still stings a little bit. Not that I wanted that guy, just how it happened so quickly for her but yet I’ve been single for awhile now. I’ve passed up a lot of guys because I’ve been waiting for someone that I really click with and have a connection with… and she gets that almost immediately.

Sometimes life just doesn’t seem fair. I’m still happy being single but I would love to find that type of connection again with someone some day. Good prospects are scarce when it comes to dating online but it’s pretty much my only chance of meeting someone new. All I can do is take things as they come and try not to obsess over anything. I’ve been in too many BAD relationships and I know exactly what I DON’T want, I just need to find what I DO want.


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